Alone

Well, as I write this blog I am sitting on my bed trying to make myself sleepy. This has been happening a lot lately since Derrick left for Jackson. I miss him a lot. But, it's not been as bad as I thought it would be.

i don't know if anyone even reads this blog. Who knows?!? But, I had a good time in Hattiesburg today with my hubby. It was so nice to see him. I keep praying that the next couple of months will bring some major positive changes. Please pray for us!

Happy Hour

Ok, so i read the last blog and determined that a lot of people may think that I have been unhappy with my life the past few years. Well, it's quite the contrary. I am happy in my life. I have my days, but don't we all?

So, moving on...I've decided that I want to go forward with my HR certification. I want to get it, not only to have it, but to better my knowledge. I want to be completely useful in the HR field. Right now I feel as though I am limited in my knowledge. I'm certainly no expert, but I want to be.

So, the next thing I guess is that my hubby needs mouth surgery. He's going to have it on Monday. He will be having 2 teeth pulled. I hope it works cause he's been in pain for days now.

You know, I don't know if anyone even reads this or not, but I hope that somehow this blog will touch someone. I will try to post not only personal, but also relevant things.

Love and peace!

The future

My future has been uncertain since August of 2006. I thought that everything would be set: good man, nice house, new cars, and cute babies. But, let's see...off of that list I have the man and the car. Sometimes I feel like I'm at a point in my life that I should have more to show for it.

It's been a challenge living with family. I hope that the things that I have experienced since this journey began will help me to better prepare for my future. Sometimes I feel like my future is an unanswered question. Maybe thats how it will always be. I feel like I'm driving down a road in the pitch black of midnight with no headlights and no streetlights. I don't know where I'm going, but the best thing I can hope for is that it will be better than where I've been.

I wish I could be one of those people that says "Oh, this has only brought me closer to God," but I can't. I try so very hard to keep my faith firm. But, at my core I am nothing more than a human with a control complex and the need to see things be resolved. I don't doubt. at my core at least, that God has a will and a plan for this; however, I don't ever feel like I get a break. I feel conflicted. The part of me that grew up in church says "Well, as humans we don't deserve anything God gives us. It's his mercy and grace." I truly believe it, but my human, selfish part of me says that why do others (whether they're "good" or "bad") receive a break and I don't?

thought of the day.

Experimentation

We all go through a point where we just want to try something new on for size. See how the shoe fits, for example. This is what I have decided to do by starting my new blog: Saints, Sinners, and Soul Searchers. I think that title describes us all in some way. We are all sinners, some are saints, and most of us are searching our souls for what lies beyond the little things we experience from day to day.

I think if we all thought about it for just a moment, we would agree that the world itself is a lot different than it was when we were growing up. Things have changed; some were for the better and some were for the worse. I hope that through this blog, those who subcribe will see a glimpse of my life as it changes for what I hope will be the better.

I hope you all have a wonderful day!

Kristymacs